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Are You Smart Enough?

Friday, January 13th, 2012

Our world reveres a high IQ, maybe not quite a much as money or beauty but high intellect comes in a close third. For sure, a strong intellect (left brain intelligence) allows us to understand and manage the physical environment. High intelligence is equated with a natural ability to solve abstract problems that so often bring concrete rewards – like high salaries -  they have just announced that Steve Jobs’ replacement at Apple will be earning over $380 million per year) and public accolades.

I’ve spent a lot of time in Silicon Valley over the last couple of years and I can say that  this area is the Hollywood for ’smart’ people. Not only is it the home of giants like Google and Apple, but is filled with small hi-tech start-ups whose founders’ dreams are almost uniformly to become as successful as the two giants or, failing that, to be bought out by them.

Last week William Poundstone published a book called Are You Smart Enough to Work at Google? which lists all the tests, puzzles, and trick questions that Google uses to sift the so-called super smart from the mere smart.

Interestingly, I lived for 20 years with a guy who could have slammed those tests. After obtaining a scholarship to Cambridge University he co-authored two papers with his Genetics professor which were published in professional journals before he’d finished his undergraduate degree. He measured in 1.0 percentile of the population on intelligence tests. He was almost always the smartest guy in the room. And yes, that led to above average remuneration throughout his working life.

But was he smart enough to live a good life? Was he smart enough to know that the matters of the heart trump the life of the brain when it comes to making good relationship, health and financial decisions? But more importantly, in a world where he was continually being told how smart he was, and with the knowledge of all the things this could bring him, was he smart enough to know what he didn’t know?

My experience over two decades of living with someone of his intellectual calibre was that yes, he was brilliant at solving all problems that had no emotional component. But when things got tough, when things seemed to crash and fall apart, he needed, and relied on, my right brain approach to life – an approach that is calm in the face of disaster, flexible in a time of flux, and has enduring confidence that all works for the best for all involved, no matter what, if only we can stay the path and keep putting one foot in front of the other.

There are so many ways of knowing something. This world is only just beginning to see the possibilities of right brain ‘knowing.’ It might not make sense to the left brain, but as stroke survivor and Harvard trained brain scientist Jill Bolte Taylor says, the left hemisphere has no role in our perception of forces and powers unseen. In her memoir My Stroke of Insight, in which she describes the effects of the stroke that temporarily incapacitated her left brain, she says:

“Based upon my experience with losing my left mind, I whole-heartedly believe that the feeling of deep inner peace is neurological circuitry located in our right brain…The first thing I do to experience my inner peace is to remember that I am part of a greater structure  – an eternal flow of energy and molecules from which I cannot be separated…Knowing that I am part of the cosmic flow makes me feel innately safe and experience my life as heaven on earth. How can I feel vulnerable when I cannot be separated from the greater whole? My left mind thinks of me as a fragile individual capable of losing my life. My right mind realizes that the essence of my being has eternal life. Although I may lose these cells and my ability to perceive this three-dimensional world, my energy will merely absorb back into the tranquil sea of euphoria. Knowing this leaves me grateful for the time I have here...”

True inner peace cannot be rationally or logically measured, calculated or created. It can’t be seen, only felt. It is the thought/feeling that rises up only when the left brain, the rational measurer and calculator, is silenced. IQ has nothing to do with it.

Success?

Thursday, July 28th, 2011

If there is an infinite field of possibilities that connects all things – as the Quantum physicists say there is – and if we want to find the way to tap into that infinite field, we have to change our definition of success.

A couple of years ago I told an acquaintance that a young friend of mine, who was just launching her adult life, had told me that she didn’t have any desire to be a raging success (implying that she wanted balance in her life). The acquaintance laughed scornfully in my face. What does she want to be, he asked, a failure? (more…)

One Of Those Days!

Thursday, July 21st, 2011

I remember listening to a CD by Sonia Choquette a couple of years ago, about those days, or times of our lives, we all experience when everything seems wrong, out of sync or just plain cruddy. Rather than resisting the situation, pouring all our effort and energy into trying to change it, she recommends we find what exactly it is we need to cope with the circumstances, to find peace and acceptance.

This is simple, yet profound counsel. However, while it may be simple in concept, it can be difficult in practice.

Firstly, we have to know ourselves, our desire, well enough to know what works for us. Most of us don’t even know what we need in any given situation, let alone know how to find it and acquire it.

Then we have to be able to listen to the dictates of our own heart without allowing it to be hijacked by the needs or demands of others. Most of us have been raised to believe that we should meet others’ needs before our own, that anything less is selfish. And yet, how can I share my oranges with you if I have none in my basket?

Choquette is right because just doing what we think we should be doing is unsustainable in the long term. We can only keep it going for so long. Eventually my empty basket impoverishes everyone in my life.

We find the insight and inspiration to determine what would make the circumstances bearable in the short term, and transformative in the long term, by looking within.

i remember a time when I was so down and depressed I would have been happy to end it all. It was 18 months after Ian had died and I had just moved my son into the college that his sister was already living in. I was sitting in my empty house wondering WTF I was doing.

The irony of my situation was excruciating. Since the birth of my daughter 20 years before I had been (almost literally) counting the days when it would just be Ian and me again – what I used to call, our pure selves (without all the complications of parenting and family life). For two decades I felt Ian was the love of my life – he was certainly my sense of home, the fulcrum around which my heart and soul centered. With Ian in my heart and life, everything seemed possible.

Now here I was – both of my kids successfully through school and into the University courses of their choice and optimistically launched into their new adult lives – sitting in my empty house with no one to care whether I got out of bed each morning or not.

I confided in my friend Alison that I was having increasingly urgent suicidal thoughts. She posed this question: what would I do if I could do anything? What plan could get me excited about life again? In Choquette’s terms, what did I need to be ok with my situation, without trying to change it or resist it, but to work with it?

I went home and meditated on this. I immediately knew I had to get out of my head. To do this, I had to change my surroundings. I already had a trip to Europe planned, my departure four weeks away. I called the travel agent, changed my flights and left within seven days.

I jumped on and off trains and buses all around Scotland and in my quiet meditative moments I had some of the most profound spiritual experiences of my life, nothing like I had ever experienced before. So many things that I believed, hoped, suspected to be true were now physically manifesting so that I now knew them to be true.

Like my kids, I was now launched on a whole new path, and life. It made old habits, routines and attitudes irrelevant, blasting beliefs about myself and the possibilities of what my life could look like into a whole new stratosphere; now, my life looks absolutely nothing like the life I had for 20 years as wife and mother.

And it all came from that simple question: what do I need to make this ok for me?; and then being prepared to listen to, and act on, the answer.

A No-Brainer

Tuesday, May 31st, 2011

So, I have another friend. She’s left the workaday world and headed off on an international adventure. This is exciting, even exhilarating, because the potentials seem endless. Anything, even her heartfelt desire, just might be possible.

But it also can be scary. So scary that in these circumstances we are all tempted to consider, as my friend is, returning to circumstances (in this case, a job) similar to those we have just mustered the courage to leave. (more…)

All Our Dreams

Tuesday, April 26th, 2011

A friend of mine recently found herself in the most enviable of positions. She had two excellent job offers on the table and she couldn’t decide which one to accept.

The first one was well within her experience and skill set, rather like the job she’s been doing the last few years. The people seemed nice, and it felt safe. (more…)

The Lord’s Prayer in Aramaic

Tuesday, March 29th, 2011

I was at a concert recently in a new age church in Santa Cruz. I picked up their hymn book and found pasted in the book leaves a translation of The Lord’s Prayer from (presumably) the original Aramaic.

Given that Aramaic was the language Jesus spoke, it seems likely this is how the prayer was given to mankind before the Church jumped in and re-worked it for its own purposes. (more…)

When Everything Changes

Tuesday, January 18th, 2011

Loss is a universal experience of human life. No one escapes it. It may creep quietly, slowly destroying our hopes and dreams, or it may be shockingly sudden and  devastating. It might clean us out internally or it may wipe us out externally. But we all experience the grief and pain of loss.

When all seems lost, when life deals a blow that sends us reeling and we have no idea how we will recover, we have a choice: face our fears or spend all our time, energy and attention running from them. (more…)

Imagine

Thursday, December 30th, 2010

The new year is a chance to start over. New year, new life.

Although quantum physics proves that time is truly an illusion, and thus markers of time merely human constructs that help us shape our life and direct our desires into an orderly and manageable process, this is nevertheless a valuable opportunity to redesign and redefine what we believe is possible. (more…)

I Want To Be a Princess

Thursday, November 25th, 2010

The news of the week is the official engagement of William and Kate. Outside Hollywood, there is little that captures the imagination and rouses the excitement of so many young (and not so young) girls. The promise of tiaras, bejewelled ballgowns and coachmen and butlers seems to play to a primal sense of hope similar to that which we feel when we hear about lottery winners: one day it could happen to us.

This hope persists, even when it is so obviously against the odds (i once heard that there is less chance of winning the lottery than putting one foot in a bath and being struck by lightning). Statistical probability and logical reasoning have nothing to do with it. Somewhere, somehow and sometime, it will be us. (more…)

now is the time

Wednesday, November 17th, 2010

Here’s a beauty tip for you. Let go of your past.

The more ‘past’ we carry around with us, the ‘older’ we get. Age is deeply connected with the past. It is the very measurement of how much past we have. The more past we carry within ourselves the older we look and feel. (more…)